Forever Yours

Lonely nights don't come cheap, but with memories of a love I hold deep. I sit here all alone thinking about your smile, I can't count the days I know it's been a while...
Everywhere I go seems crowded with your face, is it your eyes? Or just that amazing grace. 
Another sleepless night goes by, and all I wish is to be by your side, I laugh to myself on jokes we once shared, still fresh in my mind, so old but still clear..
I close my eyes and all I see is you, I was kissed by an angel to hold my breath till my lips turned blue..
The feelings I have will forever remain true, coz even when you're gone, I'm always thinking of you...

Phone calls and text messages bring you closer to me, but this distance without you I don't think I could ever be. As happy as I am with the girl of my dreams, I can't believe an angel fell in love with me...
I count days as minutes since I last saw your face,  it's been 396000 minutes, am I crazy? Or just crazy inlove...
I still smell you on my sheets, how I wish everything smelled like this...
I chase shadows in the dark hopin it'll be you, just to realise I'm chasing the wrong clues..
So I close my eyes and all I see is you, I was kissed by an angel to hold my breath till my lips turned blue..
The love I have for you will forever remain true, coz when you are not here I'll only love you...

I see you in my thoughts and dreams, even when I'm awake so real it seems, though you're not here with me, soon I know you'll be..
You have my heart in your hands, no one will ever understand.
You're my stars and my moon, being with you will come true soon..
And when you sleep, keep my thoughts in heart, nothing in this world will keep us apart..
I close my eyes and all I see is you, I was kissed by an angel to hold my breath till my lips turned blue..
You and I will forever remain true, because I will only love you

Sometimes

Its been days since we last spoke even longer since I've seen you, I hear this is tough for some people, I block out everything now, whats left is the memory of your face but all it takes is the thought of this distance for it to flood back And I start reliving the best of our days...
See sometimes I'm sure you're over me, I keep tellin myself that all my bullshit has finally caught up to me. I say I wanna see you happy and I'm alright with letting you go but sometimes I lean on the plans we made and keeping you is all I know.
So I start clicking on your Facebook just to keep up with everything you write on it, so I ask myself why don't I just call you. I guess am being honest...
Sometimes I stare at your number telling myself not to call it, so I just play back the audio clips just to listen to you talking...
And here's me thinking I couldn't be a jealous lover.. that's a good lie, coz you happy with your... yeah but... you get the picture...
But that's sometimes...
Coz sometimes I talk to other people just to get my mind off you, I'm sitting here thinking letting you be single will make sense but that's sometimes...
Coz there's always something that brings me back to how you make me feel and sometimes I sit here blamin myself, how do I end up screwin it all over again, what do I need to change by myself and sometimes I think... nah.. I lost out on you.. I ask too many questions and if anything I should just let you be free...  and sometimes I feel what we have is very special and I don't think you and I could ever find another us ever again... then I think about bein replaced and think every relationship must be the same...
Sometimes I think I over think it too much I never really speak out these things I don't have people too trust... and sometimes I think the only way we can get back together is if we get over each other first.. I know but sometimes it makes sense....
Sometimes I delete your number, but I know your number off by heart so it ends up in my phone anyway... Sometimes...
Sometimes I sit here thinking about you and I wonder if you are thinking about me.. and then I think no she'll probably be happy without me...
Sometimes I feel like we should talk about this but it's not that easy.. Sometimes I wonder if you notice it at all, the times when I don't say anything.. times when I don't call... don't let me have time to myself coz that's when I think of you the most... late at night when we should be on the phone, the mornings feel weird coz we haven't spoke...
I'm starting to relate to songs that I once thougt were just poor musically... everyone keeps telling me that we've got a happy ending and sometimes I believe it, sometimes I don't...
A million memories non of them I've let past, those times we felt like we'll be together forever I won't let it be over not that fast...
For us there will always be a happy ending but sometimes I wish you said it more... Sometimes I can justify it, sometimes I can't... Sometimes the guys tell me I should get over you but you know I can't...
Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes...
Sometimes I wasn't wrong,  sometimes you were.. but no matter how complicated life gets I know we'll get over it... and I hope you feel the same way too... and I just pray that we have a beautiful future......

I just had sex

I just had sex..
It was so nice, full of passion and wonders, it felt so nice..
See my face, see the smile, I'll have this glow for a while..
I have this bounce on my step, I feel lighter on my feet..
I just had sex, and it was so nice, I have the aura of a man, the best ten seconds of my life....

I just had sex

I just had sex..
It was so nice, full of passion and wonders, it felt so nice..
See my face, see the smile, I'll have this glow for a while..
I have this bounce on my step, I feel lighter on my feet..
I just had sex, and it was so nice, I have the aura of a man, the best ten seconds of my life....

Tomorrow

Tomorrow
Tomorrow lies a promise that was made today, frail like a woman’s touch, melts in the rain like clay

Soon to be discovered, wonders all around, a promise once uncovered, precious like the light of dawn

Hidden like forgotten treasures, precious like fountain waters, simple yet complicated

It draws its essence from a rich vein of promises and a marvel of wonders

Like a lady in waiting, tomorrow so eager it flirts with time as hours seem longer,minutes feels like hours as the seduction becomes ever stronger

A story about love... making

She said, "come, take a bite from my apple and you will see, how vast this world is filled with treasures as wild as the seas."
Crushing upon my unchanted shores were waves of skepticism bound by the sensations of a naive boy.
My mouth, wet! With the seduction of her tender lips pucking upon my clear chin.. with the smell of victory just a tips distance from my nose, I swear I saw God's thumbprints on her loins.
And as she drew closer, I thought it was going to eat me! So I cowered at the edge of my crowning moment.. with chills running down my spine I.. I stood with ovation.. woodied and lost in strange happenings I've never seen before.
And so I faultered on seeing how long I was in length and in shock I cried on in strange voices on seeing a curved twist..
But later I would come to learn all about this...

see, this is not a story about love... but a story about love... making
At the most tender of moments...

She touched my lonely limb and said, "everything is going to be alright!" And suddenly I felt warm... no.. I felt hot like the sun had just kissed me where the moon don't shine.
I felt of age like fine wine as her embrace burnt through my eager skin. I could actually see my blood rushing across each vein to the nearest artery.. felt like she was feeding my boyish fantasy.
I felt her mountains suffocating the few chest hairs I had as she squeezed her selfness on me.. and each time she pressed I felt the pounding of my heart.. but not on my chest.
I felt weak on my knees as we fell on a blanket of leaves.. and as the stars watched my every move I heard the creatures of the night cheering me on.. and on...
Like a hungry beast I felt the urge to devour her as she planted kisses all over my...

I assume you already know that this is not a story about love... but a story about love... making
At it's prime..

She put her feet at the back of my head as I drew ever closer to have a bite from her proverbial apple.
Dripping from my mouth in ample was the eagerness to finally become a man.
Honesty I had no idea as to what I was doing as my oral appendage fixated all over her warm wet saline filled sensation.
Even though i was not sure what i was doing to her it felt alright as she sang in tunes never before heard to the untrained ear.
Our sweat mixed to form nectar fit for the greek gods..
If Aphroditie was near I swear she would be shaking her immortal rear for I was dancing in her thighs...

And as I said before... this is not a story about love... but a story about love... making

Remember me in life not in death

In Death you remember a life well lived.. "A saint ascends to the heavens, spotless," we sing spirituals bribing God for a safe passage through the perly gates.. Tears flood the smell of sorrow on your final date.. They bless soils with libation to appease the  fallen father's... while naive young mother's clutch their wombs praying for the next you.. the coffin get's smudged with stains of bright coloured lips from your loved ones.. Sinners are turned to saints by words of those who are left behind but I wonder...
Why is it in death that you remember me. ..
I lived in sorrow... beging for alms today through to tomorrow... l had friends? I don't remember... family l saw only in December... I had a lover but she got repossessed by circumstances...
I found peace in death.. but where were you in the struggle?
Why is it that only in death you remember...